Pathetic!

Or at least, that's how I feel. I attempted the Saints Day 5K yesterday. At about a 1/2 mile, I had to turn around and go back. My foot was KILLING me and I was afraid I would end up in the ER if I didn't stop. Doing one of those races really makes me feel inadequate. The siren sounds and everyone seems to take off. Within 30 seconds, I'm last. Well, WE'RE last. Eric is kind enough to walk last with me. He's so sweet to me for doing that! I appreciate him more than he realizes.

The Race for the Cure (the local Komen event) is in less than 2 weeks. How on Earth am I going to get in shape enough to walk that damn thing? I'm scared that the same thing that happened yesterday will happen then. I'm so sad. I don't mind being last, but I don't like to quit. The other thing that bugged me yesterday was that I forgot to take my anti-anxiety meds Saturday night for the first time in almost 2 years. I think that once my foot started hurting me, I didn't have the meds to stop me from freaking out. My plan it to try to walk every night and do my best to get used to walking on sidewalks and around my apartment complex. I'll bring my iPhone with the Runkeeper software so that I know how far I'm walking and at what speed. We'll see how that works out... I plan to start tonight after dinner.

I don't remember if I mentioned our weigh-in last Friday at the office? Well, my weight was 1 pound less than the week before, for a grand total of 7.2 pounds gone forever. I'm still in 3rd place in the contest. My only hope is that everyone else has been eating everything in sight, just like I have. I hope I'm building lots of muscle which is in turn raising my metabolism and burning more fat... I hope. I'm not expecting a big loss this coming week. We'll see.

It seems like the people who don't exercise lose more weight than the people who exercise. BUT it also seems like you can actually see a change in the people who exercise alot more than you can see in the people who don't exercise. There is a woman in the competition who is using prescription diet pills. I don't know how I feel about that. On one hand, I feel like she has an advantage over those of us who are always hungry and killing ourselves in the gym. On the other hand, I feel like its up to her if she wants to put that crap in her body. Whatever. I suppose I could also go to a doctor and get some of that stuff. But I won't. I don't even use caffiene anymore so there is a very SLIM chance that I will use diet pills.

Anyway, my plan tonight is to eat a sensible dinner and then go for a 45 minute walk. I hope I can do it!

I have a friend who has started her own path to health. She has even had the courage to attend Zumba classes. She's awesome and I wish her all the luck in the world. If you are reading this, thanks. I appreciate it.

Insulin be gone!

Well, I have a few great things to say... First of all, I want to share that I had new blood work drawn on Monday and my doctor has begun a taper-down process of my injectable diabetes medication! It will take a couple months to be completely off of it, and he wants to run blood work every two weeks just to make sure things are good. He made me promise to continue exercising often and eating right, and in return he said that he doesn't believe I need to be on this stuff anymore!!!! My new A1C was 5.1 and I'm just so excited! Yes, there may be setbacks where my body rebels and I need to take a little longer to get off of this stuff, but I'm prepared for all of that! Life is good. No.... Life is freaking awesome!

The other thing: I've lost (so-far) 7.2 lbs. No, thats not much but its probably the first time I've ever lost any weight without medication or other weird products like that.

Eric and I did a 5K race this past Saturday. The underneath of my feet were COVERED in blisters by the time I finished, BUT I FINISHED! Let me just say that wearing the right socks is EXTREMELY important. If not, you will pay dearly. We are doing another 5K on Sunday, so I've been walking at the gym alot after my usual circuit training. Monday, I walked 1 mile. Tuesday, 1.5 miles. Today, 2 miles. Tomorrow, I plan to walk 2.5 miles and 3 on Friday. The plan is to not feel like I'm going to die on Sunday for the next 5k (like I felt last Saturday.) Its helping in lots of ways. Today, between the circuit and walking, I burned 400 calories.

My mom and sister have also started walking for exercise because they said I inspire them. I don't care why they are walking. I just care THAT they are walking. Very, very proud of those ladies. They are both beautiful, but everyone can use a little cardiovascular exercise.

Thanks for reading my blog. Now go eat a salad and some lean meat. That's what I'm going to do. :o)

5K Day, Baby!

Hey, y'all! Thanks for reading this in case you are actually reading this.

My thoughts are scrambled today because while its a Saturday, I'm also working. I do weekends on my husband's radio station, KCIL. Its weird and I hope no one really thinks that the only reason I have the gig is because we're married, but....whatever. I used to work in radio when I was in college. It had been about 10 years since I'd been on the radio but I took the job anyway. Anyway, I hope I do a good job. I miss my Saturday afternoon naps, but I digress.

This afternoon, Eric and I are participating in the Voice of the Wetlands 5K. We're walking (mosey-ing actually, but who's asking?). What is the correct spelling of mosey, anyway? I haven't done a 5K in a very, very, VERY long time so I hope this goes well. I woke up sore from what I did at the gym on Thursday, so that's not a good sign. I hope I can still feel my feet when this is over! Lots of my co-workers are doing it too and several of my friends. The festival should be fun and it will be a chance to get out of the house.

I went to a wedding last night. Neil and Angelle are a gorgeous, happy couple by the way. Congrats to them. Anyway, getting dressed for the occasion was interesting, but awesome at the same time. The dress I picked out to wear was too big. Then the next thing I picked out to wear was too big. After about 10 outfits, I finally found something that fit. It was too big, but not so much that the tops fit like dresses and the pants didn't work at all. This morning, I had s huge pile of clothes to clean up on the floor of my closet. That stuff is all in a cloth bin, waiting to be donated. My healthy lifestyle is not going to change and I'm not going to ever be able to wear that stuff again.

Thanks for reading my blog and for caring about my health-journey. Also, I see my doctor again this week for new blood work. When it comes back, we're going to discuss changing (decreasing) my diabetes meds. I HOPE so.

I also hope to be able to report great news about my 5K experience. Thanks for caring and have a wonderful day!

Pounds and Inches!

Okay.... So, here's what going on lately. I've been kicking ass and taking names over at Curves every day. They measured me yesterday and apparently, I have lost an inch in my breasts (sorry, boys!), a half inch in my thigh and a half inch in my upper arm. Life is good.

Total pounds lost so far is 6.4. Life is even better!

I have a 5K to walk this weekend, and I'm excited to do it! Hope to see you there....

Diet Schmiet!

Okay.... I don't really mean that. But, after I weighed in on Friday morning, I started eating like I usually eat. Eric took me to Copelands where I ate soup, salad and CHEESECAKE! It was awesome. Anyway, my total weight loss so far is somewhere around 5.5 pounds. I finally had a minute over the weekend to read about the Food Lovers Fat Loss plan. It seems really complicated and I'm not sure its something I want to deal with. I will give it another look before I send it back.

So back to the new style of eating. Low-carb, Atkins-like. I had been eating very low carb, but the weight wasn't falling off like I thought it should so here's what I ate today:

3 eggslands best eggs, scrambled
4 strips of bacon
a slice of cheese

a Chick-Fil-A chargrilled garden chicken salad (without carrots and tomatoes)

Celery with a wedge of reduced fat laughing cow cheese (try it, its awesome)

2/3 of a baked chicken breast with green beans

I need to drink more water.... and then even MORE water.

I also went work out at Curves after work. I'm trying to give up caffeine too. Yikes!

But, last night a few people told me I looked nice and that I looked like I had lost weight. Hopefully, they meant it! I will update again when there is something to say...

Cheers!